My first entry - day one.

Today you decided that it was okay to stay in high school your senior year, for the whole year.  You and I had been toying with the idea that you wanted to graduate early.  It's funny, as I thought of that I started feeling sad because I realized that the earlier you graduate (even though you fully deserve the accolades) that meant the earlier you might move out and move on. That almost brought me to tears driving home.  I know that you are so excited about your future and you are so excited about all of the joys and adventures that lie ahead... and I know how beautiful your life will be, because I can't see it any other way... BUT as your mom, it will be so hard to let you go.  I love you, and I enjoy you so much.  So many mothers and daughters fight and hate each other.  So many of those relationships spend so much time butting heads that they miss the true beauty in a mother and daughter relationship.  I am lucky.  I have that with you, and since you were a little girl with pigtails, you have shown how much you love me.  Through laughter, through tears and through slammed doors, you bounce back each and every day and make it important to love me too. What a blessing that is, and I have never taken that for granted. My heart is full of love for you and full of a lifetime of memories already of the time that I have spent with you. High School Graduation is so bittersweet because it represents the best of both worlds.  Your youth and your entry into adulthood.  It was nice to walk into your bedroom just to say hi, to give you a hug, and for you to tell me you loved me first.... you are special, I think God must have spent a little more time on you .... mom